part 4

12/11/08
Today I’m sittin’ in a coffee shop. A coffee shop! Not my bed! This makes a nice change, here with my latte and my notebook, feeling all important and typing away. It’s weird though, no-one takes any notice of you even when you do something as cosmopolitan as this. Ooops!
You have literally, this second, text me. It’s put a big grin on face, which funnily enough, makes people look over. Funny what people will stare at you for! I feel I have been over-analysing your poem. It’s a beautiful poem. But I think I might have looked too deep. Maybe you just feel that way, happy but disappointed due to the situation. I wish I had the courage to be open about how I feel, but I think part of the problem is that I am not entirely sure how I feel. So. Where do we go from here? I have confessed to you my uncertainty about him and me. We are not in each others futures, whatever way you look at it. He has plans; mortgage, car, money, promotion, savings. I have plans; freedom, experience, life, travel, adventure. We do not have the same plans. What are your plans? You seem quite philosophical and relaxed. Might you travel, seek out an adventure? I do not know, you have never said so. I don’t think you would. Not like me, “Pennies in my pocket and the shoes on my feet”. I’m that kinda girl. As long as the shoes on my feet are pretty.